I’m so tired of being boring!
Perhaps I’m actually tired of being bored. My last holiday was… 3 or 4 years ago? I’ve certainly had my share of random happenings over the last few years, but I haven’t looked at them as adventures. Being diagnosed with MS really shook up my life, much more so than I could admit at the time, and (despite being a “health advocate” for a few years) I’m only just really coming to terms with it now.
After going on long-term disability (hopefully temporarily!) I moved back to my hometown. Proving my independence has become less important than being in a place of healing, mentally and physically. I feel safe here, in small town Northern Alberta, where I didn’t in Vancouver. Vancouver can be a very exciting, beautiful place to live, but I didn’t ever feel connected to the city. I made some amazing friends there, but I’m much happier living here where it’s five minutes to anywhere in town! Yay no commute! Plus, I know everybody here, my parents are here, and my friends here are really supportive.
Anyway, the reason for this post: I’m taking my blog in a new direction. It’s depressing talking about MS all the time! Thinking about MS all the time! Plus I want to take my LIFE in a new direction, seeing as I have the time now, and I’d rather write about THAT than MS. MS should be incidental, something we deal with on a daily basis, but not the ONLY thing we deal with. So I want to see my life as a series of adventures, and write about that, instead of a series of challenges that all revolve around MS. I’ll obviously still post interesting information about MS. But I’m tired of being the sick girl in the corner who has nothing else to talk about! That is SO not me, even if that’s what I’ve been acting out for the last year or two. I feel much more like myself now, and the side effect of moving back here is that everyone remembers who I USED to be, and not the person I became after my diagnosis. I like the old me better, and they remind me of who I was, and who I can be. Awesome! And they’re not even trying!
So! Guess what I’ve been doing! My Dad and I are renovating a house! It’s old. And it needs a LOT of work. And we work on it an hour or two a day, whatever I feel up to doing. It’s on my own time, and I can nap whenever I want. Most of what my life is now is finding my new limits, learning what I can expect from myself, pushing until I can’t go anymore, and then I need to sleep for a few days. I can’t base my activity on what I used to be able to do, so every day is a learning experience. An Adventure!
So, I have christened myself Ms. Adventure! Or Misadventure. Or MS Adventures? Most days it’s a combination of all three. And THAT is who I want to be, since I’m not the old me anymore, and I’m tired of being bored and boring! I pledge to make an effort every single day to see the adventures around me, to look for beauty and opportunity, and to come up with something interesting to do since I won’t be on disability forever. Heh. The worst has already happened! When I was working I was TERRIFIED that I’d have to go on disability, and now I’m just grateful that I have the time to figure out who I am now, and what I’ll do next.
Next blog I’ll post pictures of the house so far. It’s cool to see things change, especially when you have some CONTROL over that change! Woot!